[He still wonders why Petre doesn't just force him into it - not like he wants that, but it's the obvious answer. Well, obvious in some ways and unthinkable in others, because that would invalidate the whole thing. John has to come willingly to make it worthwhile at all. Breaking him down is the point.
God, he's rooming with a sick fuck. And it keeps swinging from infuriating to terrifying to thrilling.]
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[He still wonders why Petre doesn't just force him into it - not like he wants that, but it's the obvious answer. Well, obvious in some ways and unthinkable in others, because that would invalidate the whole thing. John has to come willingly to make it worthwhile at all. Breaking him down is the point.
God, he's rooming with a sick fuck. And it keeps swinging from infuriating to terrifying to thrilling.]