[The look in his eyes when he turns to face Ryan again is utterly bleak. None of the usual spark there, whether it be from amusement or fury or malicious glee.]
I'll never know what to believe. All the answers were in that night and I ran away, and now he's got all the power again if I try to bring it back up. He was drunk. He's got an out for everything whether it was true or not. I was right there and knew exactly what was happening and just got - fucking suckered into -
[And he turns away again.]
(you can't that's stupid you can't be manipulated into wanting something you don't but i was but you goddamn well can't it doesn't work that way but what does that stop it stop it)
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I'll never know what to believe. All the answers were in that night and I ran away, and now he's got all the power again if I try to bring it back up. He was drunk. He's got an out for everything whether it was true or not. I was right there and knew exactly what was happening and just got - fucking suckered into -
[And he turns away again.]
(you can't that's stupid you can't be manipulated into wanting something you don't but i was but you goddamn well can't it doesn't work that way but what does that stop it stop it)