[Yeah, he is jealous. Whatever feelings Ryan has for him, they're getting stronger, and he feels like he should disentangle himself from this immediately. He doesn't need any more complicated in his life.
But Ryan gives him things he can't get from anyone else. Things he never wanted until they were suddenly present and freely on offer. He doesn't know where else he'd find them or how he'd ask for them, and he's so incredibly selfish at heart that he can't let go now.]
I told you, he came on to me. And it was just funny at first, but I thought about what you said about not burying it or locking it away or whatever, and thought why not? He's good looking. He's cool. He's not Petre. Might as well try it. So I went for it, I let him kiss me, and he cut it off right away and said - get this - "You're not ready yet." What the fuck is that supposed to mean?
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But Ryan gives him things he can't get from anyone else. Things he never wanted until they were suddenly present and freely on offer. He doesn't know where else he'd find them or how he'd ask for them, and he's so incredibly selfish at heart that he can't let go now.]
I told you, he came on to me. And it was just funny at first, but I thought about what you said about not burying it or locking it away or whatever, and thought why not? He's good looking. He's cool. He's not Petre. Might as well try it. So I went for it, I let him kiss me, and he cut it off right away and said - get this - "You're not ready yet." What the fuck is that supposed to mean?