[He's still too wrapped up in his own unhappy thoughts to read that look for what it is, because clearly what he wants isn't something that's going to happen. Ryan's just trying not to think of it as a possibility and let himself down later.
And after that, he huffs out a breath, abruptly shakes his head. If he doesn't say something it's just going to get out another way.]
Look, I know I just said I wasn't going to get jealous, but- I don't know if I can keep talking you through it every time this happens, okay? I mean. I'm trying. I don't want to just tell you not to talk about it, I really don't, but--
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[He's still too wrapped up in his own unhappy thoughts to read that look for what it is, because clearly what he wants isn't something that's going to happen. Ryan's just trying not to think of it as a possibility and let himself down later.
And after that, he huffs out a breath, abruptly shakes his head. If he doesn't say something it's just going to get out another way.]
Look, I know I just said I wasn't going to get jealous, but- I don't know if I can keep talking you through it every time this happens, okay? I mean. I'm trying. I don't want to just tell you not to talk about it, I really don't, but--