[Oh god, no, he can't take that. He can't take earnest promises, people swearing up and down about things they can't control. Everyone hurts everyone, the simple fact that kept John isolated for so long - the only way to win was, and is, not to play. Now he's set up cravings that get past all his good sense, simply by letting his guard down for a second too long with all the wrong people (wrong for very different reasons, but still wrong), and those promises are so much more dangerous than any assertion that John is special or needed.
Believing a promise makes him much more vulnerable than believing a lie.]
Don't - don't - this is so fucking perfect, Ryan, don't ruin this now -
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Believing a promise makes him much more vulnerable than believing a lie.]
Don't - don't - this is so fucking perfect, Ryan, don't ruin this now -