[God, why can't he be normal. Why can't this be sweet. Why can't he just fall right into this and lose himself and have total, stupid, blind faith that it's the right thing to do. He's got temptations on every side and wants to, should run from all of them, yet can't bear the thought of going back to total solitude.
It's too good to be trusted. That's the plain and simple fact of the matter. And it's not only Ryan that he distrusts with something like this.]
Ryan - [But he's said all this already. Ryan just plain isn't listening. All that's left to do is break the connection immediately.
Which is exactly why John leans down and kisses him instead, gripping his neck more firmly.]
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It's too good to be trusted. That's the plain and simple fact of the matter. And it's not only Ryan that he distrusts with something like this.]
Ryan - [But he's said all this already. Ryan just plain isn't listening. All that's left to do is break the connection immediately.
Which is exactly why John leans down and kisses him instead, gripping his neck more firmly.]